Loved reading this, Bel.
I could relate to a great extent. I’ve been there, questioning my self-worth. Specially after being cheated on for the second time after giving everything into a relationship, I began to ask if there’s something intrinsically wrong with me that despite complete devotion and care I seem to be insufficient.
I had to struggle my way out of it to realize that I’ve been telling myself destructive lies based on coincidences and bad experiences.
And having recovered from that phase quickly enough I’ve also started to notice so many people stuck in it. Specially when we go through too many bad experiences we start to draw conclusions that good things just aren’t meant for us, or we are not the fortunate ones.
I’m glad you wrote about it, and hope this will open some eyes.